I have a problem. Whenever my best friend can't talk to me right now (because he understandably has a life and other friends and things to do) I fall apart. I act like a two year old and throw the biggest tantrum. I cry for the rest of the day and my thinking gets really irrational and I want to do is lie in bed and HURT him.
Which is very silly of course. I like that he has other stuff in his life because it makes him an interesting person, it means we have lots to talk about and discuss. I like it that he has other friends, because that reassures me that other people too see his amazingness and I am not alone in thinking highly of him.
And I am the first person to encourage him to be honest about when he needs time to himself (as all considerate people do) but why is it that when he does this I become a balloon that instantly deflates and lies crumpled on the floor?
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Hi Michelle
ReplyDeleteI can be like this too at times. For me its because i constantly need resurrance because i sonmetimes have problems with my self esteem and what others think of me, not just anybody but close friends, especially when i have a lot of respect for that person as i do for all my friends. I always have the underlining belief that someone whenthey really get to know me they will not like me at all
sorry about the typing errors
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